Spiritual Awakening

Support system are vital to our everyday survival especially spiritually. Now I am not talking about religion even though the subjects are often inter mingled. It has been shown that human beings that go without human interaction for an extended period of time tend to suffer from lasting mental instability, along with a slue of other issues physically as well. I have always thought that when prisoners are placed in long term solitary only negative will come from it. But that is a whole different argument that I wish not to get into today. I want to talk about the importance of companionship and a support system aka “your” family. Your family does not have to be those who bore you and you share some genetically relation. Your family is your tribe the people you deem close to you and are your support structure not just to protect you physically but to guide each other spiritually to become stronger and having such a lasting bond that you still have each individual with there own thoughts and actions but you also create a oneness. What does Oneness mean to me?

Now I know to some people  that will may consider me a hippie or tree huger. My ideas are a little out there, but I know for a fact I am not alone in my spiritual belief structure.. Who knows maybe this will ring our clearly as it can often ring clearly when you hear bells tolling at 9 am on a Sunday morning, you hear church bells ringing out beckoning the call of its people. Isn’t that not the point of free will, is the ability to disagree with someone but peacefully debate openly and honestly. I believe that we were granted that free will in many different ways not just by chance, especially since we seem to be the dominant mammal on this planet. Nothing compares to humans in the mammal species, unless of course you want to talk dolphin I think they are equivalent to us but only in the sea.J A fun little video too look up is by Spirit Science hidden human history. Its time to embrace our unique sides but also our oneness within each other.

Many of you have heard of the Chakra’s with in the body . Your Chakras are the core of our spiritual power within our human flesh. There are 7 different points and each has a different meaning. There are 3 primary things that people often get confused with a chakra vs an aura and sometimes our Kundalini.

The aura is an emanation surrounding every living creature. Everyone has one we just oblivious to its existence, since its not something completely proven in the eyes of raw science. Most people can see their own aura’s just have never been taught. So I have a little assignment that my favorite sister medium taught me. Take a blank white sheet of paper, place your hand flat on the paper and stare directly at your hand. Keep your eyes open for as long as possible, until you start to see a sort of gray hue around your hand just out of the corner of your eyes. Your eyes will get very excited and of course so will you as well. It takes time and energy to master this wonderful art and opens you up to a world of color and emotion you never thought existed.

Now the Chakras are the energy flow upon which our bodies produce. Some people may also call them Psychic centers. This as your spin as a tree where the base of the spine is the base center aka Muladhara and it stands just above your head, called the crown centre or Sahasrara also called Brahma-cakra. Hence tree of life. Everyone one of them have tales of the human spirit s of the dead or humans having soul. You can learn to balance your Chakra’s with devotion to taking at least 15 minutes out of your day to just relax and learn to realign yourself. You would be amazed how much it can do for you on many levels.

I saved the best for last, this subject has just now been brought to my attention as I have continued my journey and researched as much about every religion and spiritual belief I could find. The Kundalini is the power we hold within our selves as individuals and mystics. Yes whether you want to believe what I am saying or not we all hold this power within the base of our spine. This is a female force( no offense males, you are still mentioned in the word so J and Yes as some of my friends know I can be a feminist but not in the way you think .) In our soul form I have a theory that we are no gender or race just pure energy. Lets get back to the Kundalini, I don’t want to bore all of you to pieces. The Kundalini also called the serpent power. It is our direct connection to which we are connected the planet the place we call earth and to one another. When Mother Nature becomes injured and unable to compensate, humans are feeling this change. Could this be the sudden and drastic rise in rare disorders? Even cancers that we used to not have to be screened for until you are at lease in your 40s. I do not believe that we are fully to blame for the sudden increase in autism or auto immune problems. We do have some blame in which we all need to share as a species. Yes species, I heard it but best from one of my favorite moves from 1999 cult classic in Dogma is when  Rufus said something and it seemed to ring clearly

Kudos

(Bethany and her group are now on a train. She and Rufus are in their cabin and have a small conversation.)
Bethany: What's He like?
Rufus: He likes to listen to people talk. I remember the old days when we were sittin' around the fire. You know, whenever we were goin' on about unimportant shit, He'd always have a smile on his face. His only real beef with mankind is the shit that gets carried out His name. Wars. Bigotry. Televangelism. The big one though, is the factioning of the religions. He said, "Mankind got it all wrong by takin' a good idea and building a belief structure out of it."
Bethany: So you're saying that having beliefs is a bad thing?
Rufus: I just think it's better to have an idea. You can change an idea; changing a belief is trickier. People die for it, people kill for it. The whole of existence is in jeopardy right now because of the Catholic belief system in this Plenary Indulgence bullshit. Bartleby and Loki, whether they know it or not, are exploiting that belief, and if they're successful, you, me, all of this ends in a heartbeat. All over a belief.

When is your turn to not question your Faith or belief but look as your  spirituality? I like to think of mine as more ideas then hard core beliefs Where does in any religious text does it say spiritually is not allowed to evolve and change. Even religion is evolving and we are starting to open our eyes. For more information I will attach a link that has a very wonderful description of all three, Spiritually I am traditional witch I will explain on my next excerpt.. I am the happiest spiritually then I have been every in my life before. I was lucky enough to not just find a companion but the person I hold in the utmost  highest esteem, that holds my same beliefs for the most part of course. So before I wrap everything up and stop my rambling for the night, I have one simple question what do you think the difference between spiritually and religion is. Yes I understand they often coincide within one another. I urge you to think outside of what you know and think outside that bubble. Everyone's experience will be very different and often difficult in one way or another, but we all deserve Happiness. Why can't that be our goal is to find your spiritual happiness and spiritual tribe>

Spiritually with you always

M

Follow the link below to read a wonderful artlical about all three subjects.

Aura-*-Chakras-*-Kundalini

 Oneness by Melissa Carper

Oneness opening by Melissa Carper

Alien Dragon Trigger Within.

The question I think about today makes me wonder if we are predesdine to go throught  the burdens of being a human. The question then possed an even more curious one. I sometimes wonder if we have caused the on slot of pain, aches, heart difficulties, mental abnormalities, etc; are causing ourselves as a race these trials or has this always been a part of our species as a whole. There will be many arguments about this topic, I can already hear them ringing in my ear like a melodic ballad in the next bigger question. This question is already being silently yet emphatically asked not just by mass patient of autoimmune society and there cherished ones, but also in the clinical one. So what is the clinical meaning in this fascinating question, your body is some how responding to an unknown trigger. Why does our body feel threatened enough to produce antibodies that start fighting, but what imaginary Alien Dragon are we trying to fight? Why our knights and Ninja’s  being called to action, what is invading our bodies that can not be seen?

Could this be a way for our bodies to naturally scale down in population? Have we grown to large as a race that we are now by natures design forcing our species to cut back in its numbers. If you look at some historical facts you learn that in our far distant past there was a mass drop in our human ancestry dropped to a mere 40 coupling pairs left on the plant. Many theories come to light but that is for another time.

Another side to this multidimensional question, could it be chemicals we use to better advance our species. We have found over the last hundreds of years that certain things are apparently harmful to humans but are still used in products. What about the chemicals we are just now discovering are causing very serious issues for ourselves and all of our future generations.

More pondering has to be done before any of these answers must be found. Today has been another struggling one. I find solace in my writing and drawing. My hands ache as I type but I have a stronger urge to communicate through writing and imagery and focus the pain away from my passion. Hope is always there you just have to find it within yourself and the ones around you. Love always. M

Pain Minions

Minions (noun) a follower or underling of a powerful person, especially a servile or unimportant one. As of lately all I can seem to do is lie back and allow the world to pass me by. Not by any means of my own but instead I am trapped under a much more ruthless tyrant. Pain of unknown cause or source. Every joint enclosed within my casing aches and burns with a pain that can not seem be appeased. With the pain that is clearly the leader of this unruly band of Minions. Lethargy is ready to follow and keep up his sides of the unrelenting misery as of late. The pure exhaustion makes my soul want to bawl out in anguish. My nights to seem to be filled in wakefulness and wait for the next break of dawn. I hold out in hope that I will banish the cage I appear to be stuck in. I stay steadfast in my resolve that working with my trusted medical practioners I will once again regain my body. For now I committed to fighting this battle with all I have in me. Drawing and writing seem to bring me joy which seem to be difficult during some days. But sometimes I wonder if that is all this is a trial. Today I drew an image of how I felt and everywhere the pain radiates from. I am happy to say I have started Vitamin D in hopes that my levels will return to normal. I hope everyone enjoys the imagine is so rightfully called.

Pains Minions Original by Melissa Carper   06-13-2016

Cherish

Pain, frustration, anger, hopelessness. All emotions streaming through my body in a whirl wind of pure and utter despair. Day by day passes and no resolution ever seems to help. I remember vividly the day in which I took notice of my body starting to diminish. At first I had chalked it up all symptoms from H1N1 but then something changed as the weeks went on and my body was only getting worse as time elapsed. Some days and even weeks I have been given the glimpse of hope of normality. Then it began like a fierce feral beast ready to rip through all of my body, violent night sweats the constant feeling of have no life force but laying there not understanding why no matter how much I told my brain to move it would not. My legs often feel as if they are weighted down with heavy bricks as I lay under a blanket. The feeling of pressure and vibration coming from ever joint and bone.

My limbs shake while standing still and I sway in pain. The moment I stop moving the moment my body screams simultaneously an operatic chorus of pure electricity running through my body. My hands feel like they are vibrating so intently I feel like I want to take all energy and it expel it to rid my self of the plague that has become my body.

The headaches are the next trial that seems to take place. They start a mild form of the feeling the room is rotating in a way that could not reasonably be possible. The pain always starts in the back of my skull and crawls through every open crevasse it can find to cause the pain to be unmistakable.

As of recently an old and often it seems an uninvited in all ways, guest arrived.  The Sadness and grief of life missed and self whoaling, asking so many whys that your brain can never seem to keep up to all the self doubting. My brain races looking for answers and reading as much information as it could possibly contain about blood work and labs and looking at my symptoms and crossing them against a data base and wealth of knowledge. We have surprisingly learned to become our own sort of sudo doctors.

Being within the medical field as a patient I want to go in ready with all my arsenal of research and stats along with a brainstorming sessions. I had the privilege to meet a doctor that listened to what I was telling her and helped me to start the first steps towards a solution.    

As I wait for a solution to an unknown enemy, that wishes to do me bodily harm, I have to ask myself the hard questions of life. How can I learn to take my body and fight back in every way I can. My quest is only just beginning and it will have its strong rivers that wish to only allow me to sleep with in her rolling and sweet embrace. That path may be painful yet bittersweet but not an option I choose to give in to.

I have already missed so much in my life and in the lives I truly hold most dear. So many apologies and so many words for each and everyone one.

My dearest and most cherished child. You were born out of chaos you never asked for the turmoil in all of this. Not a day escapes me that my thoughts wander to you and wonder how you are doing and how you are playing. What stories do you tell, what brings you joy and laughter? I urn every day for what I have lost, I was blessed because of you.

To my darling child designed and conjured by destiny herself. You were a blessing far more divine then every could be hoped for. I know you are strong and are loved by so many not just next to you but afar.

To both of you I did what only can be placed into one emotion Love. My brain was not capable to fight the dragons that manifested before me. Love is eternal in all things; my love is boundless for  you both. I hope to one day have you in my life as a confidante and a friend.

To my steadfast father, unwavering love is something you exude. The void that exists has one loan occupant to blame, and I must shoulder that burden. You went with out praise and thanks for the incredible fetes you accomplished standing alone as a pillar of strength and continuous reminder of your undying love. I cut and mane all ties out of fear that I have not lived up to the amazing father that stands before me. I wish I knew how to open the part of me that have been behind locked doors and windows.  I urn to be close to you and talk in a manner were I have my father back. Yet you never left just seem to be patiently waiting for the day were I break down the walls the tower over me.

To the women who became a beacon when I was covered in fog. Mother and mom is the title you have most nobly  accepted, even though I do no contain any of your genetic code. You stepped into a position the would define my whole existence and encourage me to always find my happiness. You were the bearing witness to the most momentous occasion of my life, when I was to give life to another. You held my hand and guided me until you could go no further since I had to go the path alone. You where my strength when I had none to give. You did something that was extrustrating for all sides and protected the one thing I held most dear. You were stead fast and fierce, I would of expected nothing less from my beacon.

I plague on the what if and get no solution but only burning pain of sadness. That is a dark place I am done dwelling with in. I am ready to move forward and I want you within that move. For without the people I hold most sacred in my life would life be filled with the meaning or would it be barren and desolate if I attempt to go it alone.

To my Sister medium, family ties are only a glimpse into the connection we have. We have watch each other grows and change and morph into beautiful creatures that are unique and inspiring. Your guideness is cherished and the bond I feel we have is one that sisters have the privilege of sharing. Our mothers may be sisters and not always see on the same wave length, this does not deter our bond from intensifying and becoming more profound in time

To the maternal matriarch of my family, there are no words that can describe the bond we share. You listened for hours and lulled me to sleep when I could not nothing but cry myself to exhaustion. Your failing heath burdens me with sadness as you look into the jaws of something greater. I am far from ready to bid you far well in this world. I grow saddened as times elapses and I am unable to come to visit. All I wish to do is sit and talk to you and merely be around your being. You make me feel safe and loved and I cherish you as more then my Meme but as a mother. I know days seem bleak as of late but as long as you hold on to the fact that you have brought so much joy and wisdom into my life I hope it helps bring a dazzling and newfound sense of hope.

To the family that blood does not bind us, you have been an incredible support system and kept an open mind and most importantly an open heart. I hope to one day have the privilege of calling you Mother and Father. You have been a sounding board and an ear to listen when the need ever arise. Your kindness and generosity are unparallel, I wish to one day pay you in some way for deeds you did out of love.

The mother who bore me, I hope all is well in the world you have called your home. I wish every day that I could have the closeness I once urned for so victoriously, it nearly drove me mad . Now I feel pity and sadness in a way that I have never felt before. I see the light in your eyes dying out and all I can do is hope and have faith that one day you will arise from the ashes, the vibrant and beautiful women I know you to be. The past is unchangeable, but the future is still waiting to be forged. When will it be time for my outreached hand to finally feel yours within it?

Finally to the man that needs no grand introduction. When you look at me love emotes from all body. You are the link to all things in my life. Your presence is like a new emotion tied into all things that are good and right in the world. You woke a part of me up and made me realized what I have always longed. You have emeson power and strength that I am jealous of, you are a complex enigma yet a simplistic light in which I am drawn to. You bring out my joy, and embrace in my sorrow with a firm touch and a gentle reassurance. I feel as if I am at one with the world as long as you remain in it by my side shoulder to shoulder. You see the worst of what the uncontrollable disease has done to me. You see first hand the moments were I am too weak to even stand without support. You hold my hand steadfast when the pain becomes so unbearable and you watch and wish to take my place. You do more then any one person should have to shoulder. You are my caregiver, my rock, my spiritual adviser, and my constant debate opponent. I owe you for bringing the light back out in me. You beautiful children have been nothing short of a miracle in my life. You intrusted me with three of the most beautiful and unique spirits I have ever meet. Each one a vibrant and profound energy.

To my friends that have been with me for years or only months I also owe you a great thanks, a women who saw something in me and gave me a chance and stood beside me for 2 years watching me grow and change. For the neighbor who no matter what is going on will drop what ever is happening to come to my side because all I needed was to talk. To the women who has many opinions that converge as many individuals you have be come a little sister and family without needed the blood ties. 

For almost 5 years I have fought a battle that seems unrelenting and hell bent on watching me wither. I find myself begging and bartering for a solution that may never come. I go nights where I am up listless and plagued with pain those radiators in every bone and nerve that my body contains. I keep my head high and now its time for me to fight back. I feel like the fight of a lifetime is looming and I have to be ready to push through and find a way to reclaim what is rightfully mine. For my body to heal I need my support system in place and I need to repair the bridges that I watched burn. No more masks no more hiding. I want openness and honest in my life. Secrets and lies devastate us in a way that can break us down.

My battle begins and its going to be a hell of a ride.